Chapter 4   A Closer Walk with God

 

By Gwen Jenkins

 

My divorce, and the sudden need to be self-reliant, brought with it an over-confidence which changed me dramatically as a person. I abused that gift of confidence, and indulged myself in a series of relationships and parties and marijuana. I was having “fun” in a way I’d never done before.

 

A few of my Christian friends stood by me, the others couldn’t understand the person I had become.  After two years, some stupid behavior on my part (too humiliating to mention!) brought the fun to an end, and I lost most of my friends.

 

With confidence completely lost, and hiding myself away from the world, I finally admitted to myself I had made some wrong choices in life and needed to trust God again. It wasn’t easy to return to Christian fellowship in a small town where everyone in the Christian community knew everyone else.

 

I could imagine them whispering together “that’s the woman who…”, as they turned their backs on me.  But a small handful of people proved themselves true friends (and to them I will always be grateful).  With their help and encouragement, I learned how to pray again.  They helped me make the first difficult steps back into church.  Another friend played Cupid, and introduced me to the lovely man I am now married to (21st anniversary this year!).

 

For the two of us, and our son (now aged 20), life has been interesting, fun, diverse, exciting (with the inevitable less good bits along the way).

 

Postscript: Since writing the above, life has thrown some tough experiences at us, which have strengthened our faith in God.  We have both looked Death in the face, my husband had a heart attack and subsequent surgery, and I was diagnosed with advanced breast cancer. 

 

I can only thank God for giving me the strength and determination to get through it, and for providing the most skilled medical professionals to care for us.  At one point I was given 8 months to live, which was extremely scary, and I even devised my own funeral service.

 

Praise God that all the treatment worked, and now I feel healthier than for a long time. I have even been offered a new drug treatment, not generally available, to double my chances of cancer not returning. My husband, too, has recovered well from his ordeals.  Being a Christian doesn’t mean that life will be easy and free of problems, but knowing that your Heavenly Father will help you get through it all makes all the difference.

 

Gwen 31st January 2006

 

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Links to Gwen’s testimony:

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Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

 


 

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Links to Gwen’s testimony:

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

 


 

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